I realize that I do not post a lot of personal stuff on my blog. My Facebook and Instagram, yes – but the blog…not so much. I thought maybe it was time to change that because as the title says, I am a work in progress.
As I am growing my online business, I am learning to come out of my shell more and more. As a photographer for nearly 20 years, everything I did was face to face or from behind a camera. In order to book a contract, either Wedding or Commercial, I had to go to an in-person meeting. In order to do the job, I was hired to do – another in-person event. Then, for the majority of my sales and delivery, again, it was an in-person meeting. This online, in front of the camera, zoom meetings, the virtual world is new to me. AND if I am being totally honest, it scares the piss out of me.
I have never been one who was confident in front of the camera. I learned that in grade 10 when I auditioned to be in the school play. I was so full of confidence, I was 100% positive I would get the lead role. I practiced ALL THE TIME. I was performing in front of friends in the hallway, in the drama room, outside in the field, then again at home. In front of the mirror, family, neighbours…I was going to be a STAR!
Then it was the day of the audition, ready and rearing to go I walked into the drama room, went right up on stage, introduced myself to the 10 or so people in the seats and told them what I was going to perform. They responded with a “Great, whenever you are ready.” Then, they brought out the camera and turned it on.
BAM – I FROZE. That was it. My dream of becoming the next Drew Barrymore was over. I was done, and until recently, purposely being in front of a camera was something I avoided at every opportunity.
Now, everything you read on the internet says that in order to have a successful online business, you have to be the face of your company and in front of the camera on a regular basis...That’s it, I’m screwed…
Okay, not really but it sure feels that way sometimes! Being in front of the camera, going live on social media, recording silly videos of lip-syncing and dancing seem to be the best way to get noticed. YIKES! That is not who I am, and it is not something I am comfortable doing. In-person – you bet your arse I am going to get up and dance, be free and have fun but on camera…nope. Not going to happen.
I am not even much of a selfie taker – if you look at my personal Instagram feed, for the longest time all I took photos of was my feet! (I am a shoe person, so it made sense to me…) It took a long time for me to start showing my face…
My husband and I even have an ongoing joke, where every selfie we take together, he cuts me off and I post the photos of our vacations where all you see of me is the top of my head… My family doesn’t think it is very funny, we, on the other hand, think it is hilarious!
Anyway -because of this- I create in other ways. I write blogs and eBooks. I create courses. I design social media graphics. I take photographs. I do all the things that I love to do and am making a solid effort to get in front of the camera, for the sole purpose of facing my fear of being in front of the camera.